Triggered Insaan triggered me

 Damn! I didn't know Hogwarts Legacy actually exists!

This game is so cool.

Triggered Insaan Nishchay, you are good but bro basics nahi patah. 
Tumhara style hai khelen ka, batane ka i get it.

But you frustrated me more with your Hogwarts legacy gameplay then impress. 
You are a good gamer but you play for just completing the story removing all the side quests and fun part.

And that style i personally don't like.
You said you are a potter head yet you are not exploring the game and understanding it, just solving missions.

Like everyone knows if a number is given on bottom or top of an item, it shows its quantity. You are actually pressing that number to use that item. While its clearly showing right there press tab to use. I mean the kind of dumbness?

Any gamer knows what a number on an item means but you call yourself a gamer? No. I don't hate you or anything, but an honest feedback i didn't enjoy your videos. You made Hogwarts Legacy experience bad for me.

Journey to success - a lonely one.

Just now, my night alarm for reminding me to brush rang!

My mother asked me who's calling you so late at night.

I said to her no one calls me in the day time let alone the night time.

And i now know, this is what a successful journey looks like!

I fell into a scam

 Aaj insta pe 399 me saare ott de raha tha ek banda
Netlfix
Amazon prime
Zee5 
Hostar

for 1 year
Deal kaafi lucrative thi

Form bhi bharwaya
But email nahi aa raha tha uska 

Mai suspicious hua
But laalach buri bala

Maine krdi payment
Bande ne block kr diya

Bhenchod scam

Par na bura laga
Na jaise pehle duniya hill jaati thi
Anxiety darr fear overthinking
Kuch ni

Aise alag se kuch ni hua
Papa ne bhi kuch nahi kaha

But dukh toh hota hai
Papa ne bhi kaha 

Aise lalach me nahi fasna hai abse

Compelted Hidden Hindu Trilogy

 Damn!

I am finally sick today! 
Dont know how.

But dedicated my whole day to reading Hidden Hindu parts 2 and 3.

And completed them.

Dude the story.
Bas isliye disappointed hu this is a fiction.

I thought reality hogi.

But amazing book.
Here and there those loopholes hai.

Like Vault B see saare asur aagye that was good.
But Hiranyaksh, Hiranyakashayap, Ravan, Kumbhakaran.
Sir vo toh same aatma ke hi the.
Jo Dwar paal hai Bishnu ji ke.

Vo kaise aagye wapis, 
Since i know thoda loophole laga.

But amazing.
Pura din issi me nikal gaya.
Subah 11 bje see 7 bje tak.

Amazing!

Bought Hidden Hindu Trilogy

 I wanted to read Hidden Hindu for a long time now.

Akshat Gupta ji ne itna hype krwa doya hai

Aaj uber shuttle se doosri baar aaya.

And i negotiated 450 for the trilogy in English.
Why in English?

Khair online 550 hota but original.
Yaha pirated 450 theek hai.

Bas darr hai kahi padh hi naa paau anbd yeh bhi shelf me rkhi reh jaaye.

But ghar aate hi tabiyat kharab si lagi.
Gym skip kr diya.

I read the first part.
And damn! 

What the fuck!
I thought yeh real hai.
But its fiction.

Although I had many doubts, curiosity boost hogyi.

How tf he used Ashwathama and Parshuram.

Kautilya, The ved in Ramayana Sushen, Vidur, Subhash Chandra Bose, Banda Bahadur!

OMG!

Akshat sir you are a genius.

I finished this book in 2 hours only!

Cant wait to read next part tomorrow!

Your Day Should be on your calendar

I read somewhere 

If your calendar doesn't show
how you are going to spend your day
you are never going to get your work done.

Start planning before.
Start gaining a clarity of your day.

Ind vs Aus with Papa

Aaj Ind vs Aus live match dekha 

The best part papa ne lagaya and bulaya

And saath me baith ke

vo commentary krna
vo judging krna

Shot maarne pe chillana
Wicket hote hote reh jaane pe oyehh bolna

Jo maza usme hai
Saath baithkr aise time spend krna

Bahut rare hota hai
maza aagaya

Tried Uber Shuttle First Time

 I was a bit hesistant trying uber shuttle at first.

But i booked it.

That too bought a 4 time pass at once.

Sasta padh raha tha.

Just aane see pehle arrive kiya.
Baith gaya. 

Pure raste dar sa tha station toh nahi chhot jaayega.

Ek to sabse peeche kone pe baithke galti krdi.
Ek dab gaya.

Plus bc uske ac se paani tapak raha tha.
Bahut baar merpe bhi tapka.

Ek ladki ne toh hunagama krdiya tha is baat pe.

Merko dar hai aage bhi yeh na ho kahi.

Khair it was a confortable ride, physically.
Aage dekhenge.

Yeh Tune Kya Kiya

Meri aankh ka aansu bhi
ab mera nahi raha hai

Yeh bhi tera hogaya hai

Bilkul meri Tarah
Mere har khayal ki Tarah
Meri har saas ki Tarah

Yaha pe na yaad aata hai voh gaana

Saari duniya se jeet ke mai aaya hu idhar
Tere aage hi mai haara kiya tune kya asar

Mai dil ka raaz kehta hu
Ki jab jab saasein leta hu
Tera hi naam leta hu
Yeh Tune Kya Kiya

Yeh Dosti Nahi Pyaar Hai..

Itna kuch kehne ko hai
Kaise kahu

 Dur jaana tha tujhse
 Aur paas aa gaya hu

 Kabhi jis cheez ko sochkr bhi dur bhaagta tha
Ussi ko normal kr diya hai
Bas saath rehkr hi
Kitna kuch sikha diya hai

Kaise baya kru tujhe
Ki kya mere andar chal raha hai
Chilla chilla kr puri duniya se keh du
Par tujhse na keh paaunga

Yeh khone ka darr hai
Kabhi vo bhi nhi bata paaunga

 Shayad zindagi ne hi has kr
 Aaj yeh kaam krdiya
Jo mere haath tera yeh rumaal chhod diya

 Tu kehti hai "chal rkh le" isse
 Arre pagli yeh uss pal hi mera hogaya tha
Jab yu chhod gyi thi usse

Yaad kitni bhi aaye mai keh nhi skta hu
Dost hu dosti nibhani padegi
Shayad isliye tera waqt maangna galat hai
Teri hadd se zyada parwah krna galat hai
Tujhe maa jaisa pyaar dena galat hai

Hogaya Kharcha

Behen pe bahut gussa aa raha tha

Ek baar me kaam hi nahi krti

Maine isse laptop cheena
Laptop ka display hi udd gaya.

WTF dude!

Darr hai.
15k ka kharcha hoga minimum.

Pehle hota toh mai guilt me hi mar jaata.
Ab phir bhi itna realise nahi ho raha.
Papa karenge na kharcha

Par khud pe gussa aa raha hai.
Fuck yrr.

Couldn't meet Ankur Warikoo

 Ankur Warikoo had a seminar in DTU today.
Only limited to DTU people.

I have one close friend there and I got into the college without an ID.
Feels like a super power.

But this idiot because of his lunch got me late and doors were closed.

Then went on a DTU exploration with him for the second time.
The first time I came during lockdown to check out the infamous DTU.
He's a design student btw.

But I could totally see the college owned by B.Tech guys.
Typical B.Tech Stuff.

And whats with the girls?
So much of attitude and can't live without their so-called boyfriends?

The canteen was a total mess but okay.

Overall the campus is good but now I don't get the feeling of failure anymore for not being able to crack JEE.

It was still a good day!
Mr. Warikoo till next time!

Insta Algorith Finally Worked

 I think Instagram algorithm finally understood
what type of content I like.

I didn't see any more dancing girls.
No cringy content or songs.

Pure valuable content.
Just what I like.
Eductional.
Motivational.
Dharma.

Loving it today.

Every other reel and post i see,
either sharing it to one of my category groups
or sharing it to notion!

Shutted off TVD

10 din hogye 
The Vampire Diaries dekhe jaa raha hu

It is playing with my emotions
It has so many negative emotions in it

I was feeling negative in my life too
MY emotions were getting overwhelming
I started having anxiety because it was influencing me

I cut it down today
In season 5 episode 13 I stopped
Never watching such negative things again

Negativity happened in my life
After watching squid games
Never watching these negative shows again

I hate them
Its not guilt
Its realisation

Scars

Scars are always left.
And if touched, scars turn to wounds again.

Time just helps us to move on,
we actually never forget it.

How can we forget the most beautiful thing that happened to us.
How can we erase the scars it left.
How can we not let it hurt us,
because even that hurt feels like them.

I cant be a part of the rat race

Aaj metro me travel krte
Phir vahi dhakka mukki

Log seats ke liye lad rhe hai
Chlte hue kandha maar rhe hai
Humanity dikhi hi nahi
Tameez se baat nahi krte
Seat hadapne ke liye chlte hai

Khade bhi aise hote hai 
Ki piche wale ko takleef ho nikalne me

Metro se utarne se pehle
Chadhne wale aur ghus rhe hote hai

Aaj phir Kashmere Gate pe
Seedhion se utarte hue
Itne saare sir ek saath chlte hue dekhta hu

Rooh kaap jaati hai sochkr
Ki mai bhi ussi race ka hissa hu
Mai bhi in lkaahon ki tarah
Apnna sab kurban kr kar
Kisi ki naukari kr raha hu

Merko bheed jaisa nahi banna
Merko kuch alag krna hai

Sab yehi sochte hai
But krne wala hi alag krta hai

Realise hota hai yeh
Ki karna itna bhi aasan nahi hai
Jitna influencer log dikhate hai

Kehte sach hai
But karne wale ko hi patah hai
Kitna mushkil hai

But agar kuch paana hai
Mehnat toh krni hogi
Aur abhi krni hogi

Mai iss roz chlti bheed ka hissa nahi ho skta
Mai apni insaniyat inke jaise gawa nahi skta

I have to be better
I have to do better
I can do better
I will do better
I am doing better

It tastes like Chocoalte Milkshake

 Wow 
Every time I open the box

It's so cool in there
Taking my first scoop

As I saw some time back
I didn't completely cut off the seal
Left it to get the perfect scoop and it worked


Got the perfect scoop
Well no shaker
Mixed in the mixer
300 mL milk and 1 scoop of 30gm
Nutrabay Gold Rich Creme Chocolate

Damn its thick and smells amazing
And it tastes like a chocolate milkshake
Am I drinking a protein shake?
I can drink it whole day

This is sweet and chocolaty
Going to drink it daily

I thought it would be difficult for me to take it everyday
Now i will be craving for it everyday 

Problems are Inevitable

You can run from your problems.
You can try to forget your problems.

But eventually, you will have to face them.
There's no other way.

Either way, you are going to face them.
So face them now, when you can deal with them.

As time passes by
they can get more messier and harder to deal with.

Finally Got Whey Protein

 I got my Whey Protein today

I was excited and I received the parcel
But as soon as I opened it
I got anxious 

There was no serving spoon or scoop spoon inside
I searched with a normal spoon
Couldn't find it

Dialed customer care
They were busy all the time

Fuck I thought
Had to wait and what a cheap brand
Couldnt provide the scoop

Then watched a shorts
Have to find it in the powder

I tried again
This time with a hand
More Carefully

Voila!
I found it
I am so happy again

Will try it in the evening!

Feeling Too Much

 How does it feel to live with feelings inside you?

Feelings no one would ever know that I experienced all alone.
Feelings that tore me apart every second of the day.
Feelings you cannot share with anyone else.
Feelings no one would care if said out.

Ordererd Protein Powder

After delaying it for so many days
Finally ordered Whey Protein

It took me time
And I was hesitant
because it's expensive

But finally ordered
Let's see when it arrives

The Cold Sucks

 I hate the time when the season changes.

Every time I catch a cold.
And have to deal with the medicines
and the mucus.

I believe my immunity is low?
This could be a sign need to focus more on health.

All this while I am cold due to cold and my nose is blocked.

The universe gave a signal

I noticed my journal cover in notion is like this-

A man standing on the top of mountains watching the sky.
The man standing against the beautiful clouds that have covered the sky.
The sky is in an orangish colour, sunset time.
It gives chills and warmth at the same time.

And all my overthinking and change happened because of this one experience.
The guy linked with such sky.

Life gave me a hint long ago.
My pain will be because of this guy.

I was unaware of how life could give hints to me.
I noticed it randomly.

But it brought me good.
Giving time to myself.
Thinking about improving and actually taking action.

It was meant to happen.
Krishna ki Leela hai sab.

My Choice

You are not just my Love.
You are my choice.

The One, I will make every day!

Vo, Jiski Vo Hogyi

Tu uske shabdon me hai
Tu uski aakhon me hai
Tu uski har li hui saas me hai

Tu hi uska har ek khwaab hai
Tu hi uske har vichar me hai

Vo sabse nazre chupake
Bs tujhko dhundti hai

Duniya ko thukra ke
Bas tujhko apnati hai

Usne khud ko tere naam kr diya
Par yeh kya ishq tha jo pura na hua

Ishq adhoora hi sahi
Usne tujhse kra toh hai

Dil mera jalta har waqt hai
Par uski khushi dekhke
Yeh aag bhi bhuja deta hu

Uski mohbbat dekh ke
Mai khud ko kam aakta hu

Kuch toh baat rhi hogi tujhme
Jo aaj bhi vo tujhe chahti hai
Mere lakh manane par bhi
Bs tere geet gaati hai

Khair yeh koi yudh nahi
Jo mai tujhse kr raha hu
Yeh mera ishq hai
Jo mai uske liye marr raha hu

Usko paane ki laalsa nahi hai
Bs ek sapna hai uski khushi ka

Uski khushi ke liye
Saari hade paar kr dunga

Tu uska pehla pyaar hai
Tujhe kabhi bhula toh nahi paayegi
Par usko pyaar itna krunga
Duniya usko jab bhi yaad kregi
Uske naam ke saath mera naam likhegi

Duniya se bhi kya matlab
Mujhe toh parwah hi uski bas hai
Uski aakhon me tu rhe ya nahu
Meri aakhon me bs vo hi nazar aayegi

Duniya usse dhudnti rhe jaayegi
Aur vo meri aakhon me sajj ke reh jaayegi

Ishq hi kuch aisa hoga mera
Naam jaha bhi aayega mera
Khudbah khud uska bhi saath aayega waah

Shiv Parvati sa na sahi
Toh Radha Krishna sa hi sahi

Yeh ishq hai jo maine ab pehchana hai
Tu usse pehle mila toh kya hua
Aakhiri tk saath toh mera hi aayega

Loneliness

 How does it feel when there's no one 

Who misses you
Who cares for you
Who makes time for you
Who makes you their priority

It just feels lonely. 
It feels like you are all alone.
It feels like you are not valued.
It feels like you are not respected.

Why are some people always Rude?

Rudeness comes when you are hiding your real emotions behind.

When you have become stone-hearted and have trapped the human inside you.

You are protecting your true self from the cruel world.

You have had enough and pretending to not care is easier than caring and getting hurt.